Chapter One
I read the other day some verses written by an eminent painter which were
original and not conventional. The soul always hears an admonition in such
lines, let the subject be what it may. The sentiment they instil is of more
value than any thought they may contain. To believe your own thought, to believe
that what is true for you in your private heart is true for all men, — that is
genius. Speak your latent conviction, and it shall be the universal sense; for
the inmost in due time becomes the outmost,—— and our first thought is
rendered back to us by the trumpets of the Last Judgment. Familiar as the voice
of the mind is to each, the highest merit we ascribe to Moses, Plato, and Milton
is, that they set at naught books and traditions, and spoke not what men but
what they thought. A man should learn to detect and watch that gleam of light
which flashes across his mind from within, more than the lustre of the firmament
of bards and sages. Yet he dismisses without notice his thought, because it is
his. In every work of genius we recognize our own rejected thoughts: they come
back to us with a certain alienated majesty. Great works of art have no more
affecting lesson for us than this. They teach us to abide by our spontaneous
impression with good-humored inflexibility then most when the whole cry of
voices is on the other side. Else, to-morrow a stranger will say with masterly
good sense precisely what we have thought and felt all the time, and we shall be
forced to take with shame our own opinion from another.
There is a time in every man's education when he arrives at the conviction
that envy is ignorance; that imitation is suicide; that he must take himself for
better, for worse, as his portion; that though the wide universe is full of
good, no kernel of nourishing corn can come to him but through his toil bestowed
on that plot of ground which is given to him to till. The power which resides in
him is new in nature, and none but he knows what that is which he can do, nor
does he know until he has tried. Not for nothing one face, one character, one
fact, makes much impression on him, and another none. This sculpture in the
memory is not without preestablished harmony. The eye was placed where one ray
should fall, that it might testify of that particular ray. We but half express
ourselves, and are ashamed of that divine idea which each of us represents. It
may be safely trusted as proportionate and of good issues, so it be faithfully
imparted, but God will not have his work made manifest by cowards. A man is
relieved and gay when he has put his heart into his work and done his best; but
what he has said or done otherwise, shall give him no peace. It is a deliverance
which does not deliver. In the attempt his genius deserts him; no muse
befriends; no invention, no hope.
Trust thyself: every heart vibrates to that iron string. Accept the place the
divine providence has found for you, the society of your contemporaries, the
connection of events. Great men have always done so, and confided themselves
childlike to the genius of their age, betraying their perception that the
absolutely trustworthy was seated at their heart, working through their hands,
predominating in all their being. And we are now men, and must accept in the
highest mind the same transcendent destiny; and not minors and invalids in a
protected corner, not cowards fleeing before a revolution, but guides,
redeemers, and benefactors, obeying the Almighty effort, and advancing on Chaos
and the Dark.
What pretty oracles nature yields us on this text, in the face and behaviour
of children, babes, and even brutes! That divided and rebel mind, that distrust
of a sentiment because our arithmetic has computed the strength and means
opposed to our purpose, these have not. Their mind being whole, their eye is as
yet unconquered, and when we look in their faces, we are disconcerted. Infancy
conforms to nobody: all conform to it, so that one babe commonly makes four or
five out of the adults who prattle and play to it. So God has armed youth and
puberty and manhood no less with its own piquancy and charm, and made it
enviable and gracious and its claims not to be put by, if it will stand by
itself. Do not think the youth has no force, because he cannot speak to you and
me. Hark! in the next room his voice is sufficiently clear and emphatic. It
seems he knows how to speak to his contemporaries. Bashful or bold, then, he
will know how to make us seniors very unnecessary.
The nonchalance of boys who are sure of a dinner, and would disdain as much
as a lord to do or say aught to conciliate one, is the healthy attitude of human
nature. A boy is in the parlour what the pit is in the playhouse; independent,
irresponsible, looking out from his corner on such people and facts as pass by,
he tries and sentences them on their merits, in the swift, summary way of boys,
as good, bad, interesting, silly, eloquent, troublesome. He cumbers himself
never about consequences, about interests: he gives an independent, genuine
verdict. You must court him: he does not court you. But the man is, as it were,
clapped into jail by his consciousness. As soon as he has once acted or spoken
with eclat, he is a committed person, watched by the sympathy or the hatred of
hundreds, whose affections must now enter into his account. There is no Lethe
for this. Ah, that he could pass again into his neutrality! Who can thus avoid
all pledges, and having observed, observe again from the same unaffected,
unbiased, unbribable, unaffrighted innocence, must always be formidable. He
would utter opinions on all passing affairs, which being seen to be not private,
but necessary, would sink like darts into the ear of men, and put them in fear.
These are the voices which we hear in solitude, but they grow faint and
inaudible as we enter into the world. Society everywhere is in conspiracy
against the manhood of every one of its members. Society is a joint-stock
company, in which the members agree, for the better securing of his bread to
each shareholder, to surrender the liberty and culture of the eater. The virtue
in most request is conformity. Self-reliance is its aversion. It loves not
realities and creators, but names and customs.
Whoso would be a man must be a nonconformist. He who would gather immortal
palms must not be hindered by the name of goodness, but must explore if it be
goodness. Nothing is at last sacred but the integrity of your own mind. Absolve
you to yourself, and you shall have the suffrage of the world. I remember an
answer which when quite young I was prompted to make to a valued adviser, who
was wont to importune me with the dear old doctrines of the church. On my
saying, What have I to do with the sacredness of traditions, if I live wholly
from within? my friend suggested, — "But these impulses may be from
below, not from above." I replied, "They do not seem to me to be such;
but if I am the Devil's child, I will live then from the Devil." No law can
be sacred to me but that of my nature. Good and bad are but names very readily
transferable to that or this; the only right is what is after my constitution,
the only wrong what is against it. A man is to carry himself in the presence of
all opposition, as if every thing were titular and ephemeral but he. I am
ashamed to think how easily we capitulate to badges and names, to large
societies and dead institutions. Every decent and well-spoken individual affects
and sways me more than is right. I ought to go upright and vital, and speak the
rude truth in all ways. If malice and vanity wear the coat of philanthropy,
shall that pass? If an angry bigot assumes this bountiful cause of Abolition,
and comes to me with his last news from Barbadoes, why should I not say to him,
'Go love thy infant; love thy wood-chopper: be good-natured and modest: have
that grace; and never varnish your hard, uncharitable ambition with this
incredible tenderness for black folk a thousand miles off. Thy love afar is
spite at home.' Rough and graceless would be such greeting, but truth is
handsomer than the affectation of love. Your goodness must have some edge to it,
— else it is none. The doctrine of hatred must be preached as the
counteraction of the doctrine of love when that pules and whines. I shun father
and mother and wife and brother, when my genius calls me. I would write on the
lintels of the door-post, Whim. I hope it is somewhat better than whim at
last, but we cannot spend the day in explanation. Expect me not to show cause
why I seek or why I exclude company. Then, again, do not tell me, as a good man
did to-day, of my obligation to put all poor men in good situations. Are they my
poor? I tell thee, thou foolish philanthropist, that I grudge the dollar, the
dime, the cent, I give to such men as do not belong to me and to whom I do not
belong. There is a class of persons to whom by all spiritual affinity I am
bought and sold; for them I will go to prison, if need be; but your
miscellaneous popular charities; the education at college of fools; the building
of meeting-houses to the vain end to which many now stand; alms to sots; and the
thousandfold Relief Societies; — though I confess with shame I sometimes
succumb and give the dollar, it is a wicked dollar which by and by I shall have
the manhood to withhold.
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